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December 24, 2005

After so many days, i finally back in Blogging le wor.. yesterdae my last day of work in the Yokogawa... Ermm kinda abit unbearin le.. Quek and the rest treated me to the Laguna Country Club... Abit Paiseh cos caused them to waste money to treat me eat...I enjoyed the meal very much and the food there was kinda tasty furthermore the Astmosphere was kinda classic and romantic... Me later goin out to watch movie with Alvin... The 1st time meetin after kwnin each other thru Friendster frm Michelle's Link... We meet each other at ard 5.30 pm at Suntec city b4 collectin our Chronicles of Narnia movie ticket...

The mOvie was Kinda an interesting one.. Kinda Magical and the effect was great... It was quite a worthwhile movie to watch.. tml i will be going To Jb with My family members le.. haha first time outing with them out of Singapore... Feel myself quite useless as i can afford to treat them to go HK or maybe Japan... haix... but nvm i believe myself i shld be able to afford more oversea holidae for them in the future... lolx... 1st and foremost i must pass my M9 test paper on the 3rd of Jan 2006.. May 2006 will be a better yr for me..

Next i nid to write abt my feelin for Alvin and the rest of the guys who are sort of saying wanting to Woo me.. or Like me.. Frankly speakin, the one who i really love are the 2 person as below... Sky and Yw... although i kwn that me and them are impossible but yet i still cant forget them as they hold a kinda special place in my heart... as a Frenz i wish to be their side forever.. Basically beside i am not ready to be in a relationship yet nw.. and is nt all simply because of them... Perhap i still nid more space and time to think thru wat i really wan and who i can believe... haix.. To Alvin, i Kwn u treat me gd and i am really very sorry to make u feel miserable.. cos i cant be ur gf as this is nt fair for u... Hope u can understand... dun wanna make u to wait for me lo.. we still Be frenz 1st better.. wil be ur side when u nid Help... or when u feel dwn... do Think of Me ba...

December 14, 2005

recently feelin very upset and confuse... yesterdae juz fail my M9 again.. wow feelin so depress le.. this is my 2nd test le... the aggregate seem so near but yet so far... haix.. nearly pass the test but simply no luck lo... or perhap i am fated to take it for 3 times then can pass... haix..

i felt so useless as i always got tired easily and these few weeks onli wrk a 2 or 3 days per week... wow OMG i am really going broke le... dunno whether to claim the leave or leave it unclaim... if i really claim those leave then i will be left nthing le... so dilemma sia... if dun claim like no veri gd le... haha maybe only claim a few off days ba... tml nid to go back wrk le... and next whole week muz go for wrk unless i gt retest... hehe.... this is a promise made to myself le... aniwae me going to extend my wrkin day... cos tot of using these few days to earn more... beside the wrkin time is so easy so no harm wrkin few more days... before i start my new job as a part time language teacher and insurance agent... still considerin i can manage to juggle wif 3 job at a time or maybe i shld give up my tuition job?

haha.. maybe in this case will be better for me as i have no time to involve in a relationship and no nid to get myself hurt again... recently my relationship wif yuwei gets sour... simply dun understand why or maybe i juz think too much le... to me i juz hope to be part of his life as years go dwn the road... even though i kwn he wont accept me but juz hope that he will still think of my existence when he's dwn... i dun mind to give a helpin hand for him and of cos i dun expect any return frm him... is juz my yi xiang qing yuan ba... Recently confusing as i dunno who to accept now... shld i choose someone whu love me or shld i choose the one i love... maybe i shld give myself a chance to start a relationship ba... among the 4 guys .. each have their gd points and ba points... but cum to think dunno whu can take it when their gf's heart dun realli belong to them 100 %.. common whu will 100% love someone at 1 time? i shld realli stop here and continue next time... c ya... and hope u enjoy readin my blog entry...

December 09, 2005

Today is the most unlucky day for me... Late for my M9 exam and flung the paper... feelin kinda demoralise now... haix... thought i can pass this paper at one go... but never expect that i still cant escape the retaking fate... Saddish sia... and my next retest date will be on next tuesday... hope i can make it this time... realli hope to pass and officially be an insurance agent... Beside another Sad thing is that.. my frenz Rae tot i have cum between her and her Boyfrenz, Calvin... Comeon i couldnt fall in love wif him de as he simply too old for me le...and we doesnt have the kind of chemistry...

Gotta tell u that i have already agree to Faizal to be his girlfrenz... but now his attitude totally change le... becum kinda cold to me... haix.. also dunno wat he wans sia... perhap i shldnt say Yes to him ba... recently feel kinda lonely even though i try to keep myself occupied wit tons of works.. but i juz cant keep on thinkin about Yuwei... simply i dunno why le... i really nid him to be myside sia... i kwn is kinda abit unfair for Faizal but then i love Yuwei and of cos i do like Faizal but Love and Like is a two differnt matter... i do try to give myself and Faizal A chance but then now it seems like he totally give this chance up... as i found him too petty and simply he dun understand me... dunnoe wat i wan neither do i understand wat he wan... Perhap a companion ship instead of loving me... Is it so difficult to find te guy that u love and yet he love u too? i shld really break up wif Faizal fast as i really think it is wasting our time...

December 04, 2005

todae is the most boring day i ever had in the whole week... actualli by rite i suppose to go out wif Faizal de but then due to my menstra so i gotta cancel off the date wif him... instead ofbeing understanding... he make a fuss out of it.. saying that i got lots of reason nt to meet him de... due to this argument it make me feel that he dun really understand me... and i simply cant stand ppl whu accuse me for doing things which i dun... haix... why cant any other guys like Yuwei understand me de? perhap i shldnt even consider Faizal to be my Boyfrenz lo... actually at 1st still tot of givin it a try and let Yuwei go.. as me and him are juz destinated to be Kor and Mei ba... so i simply dun change this status of ours... but basicalli i still hope we still can be gd frenz no matter wat happen...

Todae Yuwei came to my hse as he helped me to repair my Pc... and he helped me to assemble... so he stayed at my hse for a few hours... i kinda jealous of my sister... as she talked alot wif him... but comm on la.. Vivian, she's ur sister le... why shld u be jealous of her? and basically Yuwei onli treat her as his sister... juz like to disturb her.. and played wif her.. so i shldnt be so sensitive wif tt...

k la.. i think i shld stop bloggin here... and is time for me to sleep soon... haix.. feel kinda worried and excited wif my M9 this cuming fridae.. haix.. hope i can really pass it at one go... i nid to study extreme hard nowadays...wish myself luck ba... update wif ya again..

December 01, 2005

Me back in blogging again.. now preparing to count dwn my remaining days in Power Seraya... haha... me finally free frm the job on the 23rd of Dec le... hehe.. cant wait for the special day to arrive.. lolx... although excited but now very stress as my next insurance paper, M9 is just a week later... and yet i haven finish studying.. wow kao men... todae James gave me a tuition on my M9... His girlfrenz also tag alone later... haha.. now c 2 of them together realli nt veri compatible le.. but wat to do as long as my Boss like can le la...

Ermm a few days nv msg Faizal le.. neither do he sms me nowadays ever since i cant meet him on Monday... haix.. wat to do i am really dam tired wat.. anyway forget it la since he is so petty and beside dun really trust him for likin me and dun trust him for treating me as his Dear... WTF sia.. perhap he's juz too borin le ba.. haix.. neither will i accept him as my Bf as we are really two poles apart le.. As 4 me and my Kor, we are still having the ai mei relationship lo.. haha todae he call and look for me callin me Qing Ai de.. wow i really veri shock but then i kwn he juz jokin nia la.. Otherwise he is dreamin lo.. hehe... But Watever the reason was, i still feel very Happi when he address me That...