today is a coolin and rainy saturday... wow after these few holidae by right yesterday i suppose to go to work but in the end cos not feelin well.. again got to apply leave again.... another unpaid leave sia... lolx... this month my pay will deduct dunno hw much le.. kinda saddish sia... later going for my colleague weddin at Marina Mandarin hotel... ermm gotta broke again as nid to give red packet ma...

u kwn two days ago... i argue wif him.. and frm this argument i gets to kwn that how sweet and hw concern he was to me... i really feel very sad in argueing with him... i dunno why i'm so jealous when he say he wanna kwn my frenz frenz after Wed clubbin at ChinaBlack... that gal is such a hot and wild babe.. perhap most gals like to kwn this kinda of gals ba... i purposely dun wanna answer his call nor reply his sms... juz dun wanna heard frm him at that very moment... and he keep on callin and smsing me... saying that he was worried abt me doing anythin silly... but frankly i'm nt to that extend doing any thing stupid la.. is juz dun wanna contact or talk to anyone.. i really suspectin myself gettin depression le... hw? whu out there can help me? but till now me and him better le...i am tryin to cut dwn my contact wif him... perhap Sze is rite lo... dun care abt whether he gt contact wif tt gal nt juz care abt myself and him can le.. wat for make my life so miserable?? juz relax and dun care what ever he told me gt tell others nt... i really Hao xiang Zhi Dao ta de Li xiang Qing Ren dao Di is zeng yang de ren, dao di you mei you wo de feng..

Just waNNa Kwn that how he feel for me... everytime i asked him abt this kinda of question.. he always try to avoid it.. he nv reject or accept me... he himself also dunno hw he feel for me? even though he have feelin for me but he juz dun wanna anyhow think... perhap he really wanna avoid ba... but to me if he doesnt like me, can he reject me directly instead of treatin me so gd.. i scare i cant control myself in fallin deeper for him..

Perhap i shldnt think so much le ba.. i juz cant help myself to think le.. and concentrate on my insurance test next next week... juz wanna pass so i can fulfill my ambitious to be an agent... i am really lookin forward in this line.. juz as i am lookin forward to be an child care teacher.. hehe... btw forget to inform u tt next week onward till dec.. i'm wrkin as a part time cashier at my hse here de ntuc... ermm hope i can make use of my free time to earn money... meanwhile he also going to wrk in starhub company le.. his trainin starts todae.. hope he can really stick to his job till dec... cos he nid money now.. so i hope he can depend on himself to obtain wat he wan... instead to borrow frm frenz.. rite? and i believe he can do it de... cos i believe he do have ability to obtain wat he wans...maybe i really too naggy sometime ba... dan yuan he wont be irritated by me...

Dear Blog.. i am back in updating my dairy le.. this week realli rocks men.. cos is kinda a long holidae for me le.. cos Monday half day... tues, wed and thurs is a holidae for me.. lolx.. hard to find le.. cos most of my frenz still nid to wrk le.. so consider myself luckily men..

haix.. feelin kinda sad as i flung my 2nd insurance test paper le on the 27th of October... OMG wat shld i do? i really hope to get into this line le.. hope i can really make my mark in this line... God can u please help me.. or anyway out there can help me? perhap shld i depend on myself to obtain this line... lolx...

sometime i feel really empty le.. wat shld i do? wanna go look for a bf but where on earth i shld i go and find one? maybe i shld wait nature take its course ba... or shld i wait for my kor? i dunno hw he feel for me cos my relation with him is really complicated... haix.. somehow so near somehow so far... is lovin someone so difficult to tell? or is it sometime when u have feel for someone doesnt mean that u like or love him? what does love means sometime? i also dun really understand.. haix... does all guys really go sex instead of love? or shld i say they wont care whether they gt feelin for tt girl they will still have sex with them? this is wat i heard from all my colleagues... even though they are married but then they still go hunt for prey.. perhap there are some gd guys out there who really have sex with only to those they have feelin and not becuase of their needs...

life kinda gets boring nowadays cos i wanna earn more money to fulfill my ambition to be a businesswomen.. lolx.. somehow like the hyflux CEO... how i envy those ppl who are so rich that they do not have to think on how they spend their money... i think i better stop bloggin here.. cos time is gettin late le..

Dear Blog, todae i very unhappy le.. cos of someone break his promise and in the end i got to go to my fren birthdae alone... not only he break his promise but he also told me a lie... How could he tell me a lie? Why must he do that? if he doesnt want to go with me juz tell me directly lo... I am kinda disappointed in his way of doing... Never expect he will Lie to me... We nearly argue but now we Okay le... but then i think he gonna break his promise again as He promise to call me after he reach home.. and till now he still haven give me a call... haix...

The last post i mention about my Hk trip rite? i updated some photos of my trip in my Blog le... i still misses my days in HongKong... Perhap i shld migrate to there... what do u think le? any comments? lolx...

Todae i juz went to one of my students hse to collect my payment of tuition fees... kinda disappointed as my student's result deprove instead of improve... then his mummy somesort blamed me about this... so i think next year i wont be able to follow him up to Primary 4 le... but then still hope he can be more sensible towards his studies... and work hard... next year 2006, i will be onli taking 4 or 5 students ba... provided i do have ample time to give tuition...

yesterdae nite went to went for a movie... this is a new show by Andy Lau... All About Love...is a veri nice show even though the tempo is abit slow... as it was a artistic movie... tt's why the story goes slowly... anyway in the end the endin was kinda sad as Andy Lau still live in the memories of his Wife... sometime this word seem logical, "bu neng zai yi qi dan shi hui yi ye shi yi zong mei li de gou du".. perhap not all people will agree to his phrase but then to me is somehow logic... Sometimes Love a person doesnt really mean to own him... something is better to let go then to hold on... it might be better for either party... dont u all agree?

anyway todae i think better blog till here otherwise my posting will go on and on... again and again... lolx.. nite pals...

Dear Blog... i'm finally back in bloggin again... life couldnt get any better for me... so hw abt all my pals? recently my blog get abit quiet le... no ppl leave any tag for me kinda sad sia... sorri for the late update of my personal life as my internet access gt abit problem...

me juz back to singapore frm HK nearly three weeks ago... wow the trip was kinda nice and interesting... HK lifestyle is realli veri different frm us... their lifestyle is kinda abit fast than Singapore... perhap tt's the reason cant get use to their footsteps for the 1st day... Sze... Li Jun plus me stay In Hk for 5 days 4 nights... and the events we do everyday is basically Shoppin.. Shoppin and Shoppin... of cos we do visit some interestin places like THE PEAK>>> DISNEYLAND>> OCEAN PARK>>> all these places are kinda interesting.. especially THE PEAK, u get to c the night scene of HK... and i can confirm with u.. it is more eye catchin than SINGAPORE night Scene... Recently Singapore gt one topic is about our customer service as compare to other countries is poor... come to this point i do agree wif tt... Those Sales Assistant in HK are more polite and friendly than Singapore Sales Assistant... i cant simply blame Singapore Sales Assistant... as i'm formly frm this line last time... but to me i do admit that some customer are realli hard to please wherelse there of cos have some easy going customer lo... nt so dam demandin de.. lolx...

anyway for todae i will stopped here as i'm feelin kinda tired le after going KTV wif Jiayi... lolx... so is time to slp nw..

Dear Blog.. i am back in blogging again... it has been days ever after i last blog... life to me is as usual... nothing interesting happen.. but then there is something i found out which is i am gettin more and more in love with someone... haha.. and i finally have given Sky up le.. anyway feel kinda Happi for him as he had found his true love... perhap is really true that time can realli heal everything or shld say when there are someone enter ur world.. u can forget your ex lover.. lolx...

Life couldnt get any better.. as recently i juz get my bonus pay and of cos an pay increment.. even though the increment is a bit low which is 40 bucks.. but then there is extra 120 dollars of allowance... better than nothing ba... this whole week i nv really do any much work... haha.. eat snake alot sia... as this whole week i stay in office and there are nothing which i can do... wow.. sianz...

furthermore update u all about my health recently... haix.. if really muz grade.. i will only give my health a grade c.. cos recently my old injuries start to pain again.. and according to doctor.. my bone near my kneecap have been dislocated... haix... feelin kinda helpless and worried as.. next week i will be going to HK... hope this wont affect my trip le...i think i better go consult a doctor next week ba... what do u all think? shld i delay or ignore? haix.. i'm really veri confuse...

btw pals.. hope those guys oversea will be able to update my news.. and too i also wish to hear frm u all soon... Feelin helpless and Loved... lolx...