wow i'm finally back in blogging after my last entry in 24th of Dec (Christmas Eve)... And this is my 1st entry in the brand new 2006 yr... everythin to me now is a brand New start for me... lolx.. A New Rotting Life.. Before i Start My Insurance Line Gotta Charge more energy le then can worked harder ma.. Crap Rite? on the 3rd day of The new Yr.. I flung My M9 exam again for the 3rd time... wow Kaoz rite? Juz simply dun understand why i Keep on Failin... Feelin kinda bad as I am Wasting James' $$$... Hereby say Sorry to U James... I am Not Gu yI de... perhap i'm juz too poor in the theory part.. But Dun worry i will try my very very Best In the Next round (4th Time) on the 9th Of Jan... Next coming Monday... So excited and Anxious..

Life For me So Far is Not Bad... Only simply dun understand Why Alvin get so pissed off when i nv reply his Sms... But Come On La.. sometime i'm juz too busy so forgotten to reply... anything wrong with tt? But then If he gt any serious or Important stuff nid to tell me.. Why Cant He call me instead of Flooding My Msg and Scold All those ad Words? As IF i really did somthing wrong like tt... And Ya for Alvin if u get to read this... Please La... For Yuwei And Sky they wont flood my msg like tt de lo... and if i nv reply their msg they also wont scold me bad words de... So childish stuff u also can do... How u kwn wat ever msg they msg me i will reply le? Pls la... If i realli dam Busy Even My best Frenz msg i also nv reply de wor.. And y they can understand and nt u le? Ps: Not All Ppl Are like u so free de wor... I gt my Stuff to do... Sorry to say tt... cos u really get me off my nerves le.. Nv ever came across any ppl so childish like u.... Ppl good intention u treat it as if i am going to harm u... forget to tell u I am now attach le.. But my boyfrenz is neither Yuwei Or Sky... the reason why i nv choose u to be my boyfrenz cos u realli freak me Out... Actualli tot Of giving Us a chance de But then u spoilt the chance le as i now then kwn ur true identity... And Hope u can realli change ur attitude lo.. Perhap Ur Ex left u is Because of Ur possessiveness...Understand...

Aniwae Hope Everything Goes Well For u and For me too... Wish u all the best in the brand 2006 yr... And also to all my pals out there.. A HAPPY 2006 TO U... GOD BLESS...

After so many days, i finally back in Blogging le wor.. yesterdae my last day of work in the Yokogawa... Ermm kinda abit unbearin le.. Quek and the rest treated me to the Laguna Country Club... Abit Paiseh cos caused them to waste money to treat me eat...I enjoyed the meal very much and the food there was kinda tasty furthermore the Astmosphere was kinda classic and romantic... Me later goin out to watch movie with Alvin... The 1st time meetin after kwnin each other thru Friendster frm Michelle's Link... We meet each other at ard 5.30 pm at Suntec city b4 collectin our Chronicles of Narnia movie ticket...

The mOvie was Kinda an interesting one.. Kinda Magical and the effect was great... It was quite a worthwhile movie to watch.. tml i will be going To Jb with My family members le.. haha first time outing with them out of Singapore... Feel myself quite useless as i can afford to treat them to go HK or maybe Japan... haix... but nvm i believe myself i shld be able to afford more oversea holidae for them in the future... lolx... 1st and foremost i must pass my M9 test paper on the 3rd of Jan 2006.. May 2006 will be a better yr for me..

Next i nid to write abt my feelin for Alvin and the rest of the guys who are sort of saying wanting to Woo me.. or Like me.. Frankly speakin, the one who i really love are the 2 person as below... Sky and Yw... although i kwn that me and them are impossible but yet i still cant forget them as they hold a kinda special place in my heart... as a Frenz i wish to be their side forever.. Basically beside i am not ready to be in a relationship yet nw.. and is nt all simply because of them... Perhap i still nid more space and time to think thru wat i really wan and who i can believe... haix.. To Alvin, i Kwn u treat me gd and i am really very sorry to make u feel miserable.. cos i cant be ur gf as this is nt fair for u... Hope u can understand... dun wanna make u to wait for me lo.. we still Be frenz 1st better.. wil be ur side when u nid Help... or when u feel dwn... do Think of Me ba...

recently feelin very upset and confuse... yesterdae juz fail my M9 again.. wow feelin so depress le.. this is my 2nd test le... the aggregate seem so near but yet so far... haix.. nearly pass the test but simply no luck lo... or perhap i am fated to take it for 3 times then can pass... haix..

i felt so useless as i always got tired easily and these few weeks onli wrk a 2 or 3 days per week... wow OMG i am really going broke le... dunno whether to claim the leave or leave it unclaim... if i really claim those leave then i will be left nthing le... so dilemma sia... if dun claim like no veri gd le... haha maybe only claim a few off days ba... tml nid to go back wrk le... and next whole week muz go for wrk unless i gt retest... hehe.... this is a promise made to myself le... aniwae me going to extend my wrkin day... cos tot of using these few days to earn more... beside the wrkin time is so easy so no harm wrkin few more days... before i start my new job as a part time language teacher and insurance agent... still considerin i can manage to juggle wif 3 job at a time or maybe i shld give up my tuition job?

haha.. maybe in this case will be better for me as i have no time to involve in a relationship and no nid to get myself hurt again... recently my relationship wif yuwei gets sour... simply dun understand why or maybe i juz think too much le... to me i juz hope to be part of his life as years go dwn the road... even though i kwn he wont accept me but juz hope that he will still think of my existence when he's dwn... i dun mind to give a helpin hand for him and of cos i dun expect any return frm him... is juz my yi xiang qing yuan ba... Recently confusing as i dunno who to accept now... shld i choose someone whu love me or shld i choose the one i love... maybe i shld give myself a chance to start a relationship ba... among the 4 guys .. each have their gd points and ba points... but cum to think dunno whu can take it when their gf's heart dun realli belong to them 100 %.. common whu will 100% love someone at 1 time? i shld realli stop here and continue next time... c ya... and hope u enjoy readin my blog entry...

Today is the most unlucky day for me... Late for my M9 exam and flung the paper... feelin kinda demoralise now... haix... thought i can pass this paper at one go... but never expect that i still cant escape the retaking fate... Saddish sia... and my next retest date will be on next tuesday... hope i can make it this time... realli hope to pass and officially be an insurance agent... Beside another Sad thing is that.. my frenz Rae tot i have cum between her and her Boyfrenz, Calvin... Comeon i couldnt fall in love wif him de as he simply too old for me le...and we doesnt have the kind of chemistry...

Gotta tell u that i have already agree to Faizal to be his girlfrenz... but now his attitude totally change le... becum kinda cold to me... haix.. also dunno wat he wans sia... perhap i shldnt say Yes to him ba... recently feel kinda lonely even though i try to keep myself occupied wit tons of works.. but i juz cant keep on thinkin about Yuwei... simply i dunno why le... i really nid him to be myside sia... i kwn is kinda abit unfair for Faizal but then i love Yuwei and of cos i do like Faizal but Love and Like is a two differnt matter... i do try to give myself and Faizal A chance but then now it seems like he totally give this chance up... as i found him too petty and simply he dun understand me... dunnoe wat i wan neither do i understand wat he wan... Perhap a companion ship instead of loving me... Is it so difficult to find te guy that u love and yet he love u too? i shld really break up wif Faizal fast as i really think it is wasting our time...

todae is the most boring day i ever had in the whole week... actualli by rite i suppose to go out wif Faizal de but then due to my menstra so i gotta cancel off the date wif him... instead ofbeing understanding... he make a fuss out of it.. saying that i got lots of reason nt to meet him de... due to this argument it make me feel that he dun really understand me... and i simply cant stand ppl whu accuse me for doing things which i dun... haix... why cant any other guys like Yuwei understand me de? perhap i shldnt even consider Faizal to be my Boyfrenz lo... actually at 1st still tot of givin it a try and let Yuwei go.. as me and him are juz destinated to be Kor and Mei ba... so i simply dun change this status of ours... but basicalli i still hope we still can be gd frenz no matter wat happen...

Todae Yuwei came to my hse as he helped me to repair my Pc... and he helped me to assemble... so he stayed at my hse for a few hours... i kinda jealous of my sister... as she talked alot wif him... but comm on la.. Vivian, she's ur sister le... why shld u be jealous of her? and basically Yuwei onli treat her as his sister... juz like to disturb her.. and played wif her.. so i shldnt be so sensitive wif tt...

k la.. i think i shld stop bloggin here... and is time for me to sleep soon... haix.. feel kinda worried and excited wif my M9 this cuming fridae.. haix.. hope i can really pass it at one go... i nid to study extreme hard nowadays...wish myself luck ba... update wif ya again..