blogging time

Xuanny is back to blogging again... wow finally after 2 weeks without laptop... Sad man... LIFE is getting on well.. and juz to inform u ppl that i am attached le... my Dear now treat me very good... and i feel like a princess under his tender love and care... wow sound so mushy rite? but indeed this is the real feelin he gave me... Just a short paragraph to describe my Dear... He is one of my colleague in my company... Can consider my junior ba.. lolx...He's veri hardworking and i am sure that he can really earn big money if he can be more confident in himself...Although he's not very good lookin but he do have a decent face... i looked much more older than him wor.. sad sia... he's born in the month of oct... under the sign of scorpio...according to the stargrazer... my horoscope and his is very competible... i do hope so ba... anywae in relation is still up to individual to handle it with care and shower with love...perhap he's the one for me ba... is still too early to judge ba.. Is nt that i dun trust him but rather dun trust time...

We started off in the month of March... and till 9th of April... is already the 2.5 weeks of being together... and 5 more months is my birthdae le wor... and by then i will be 23 this yr... Haix sound so old sia... hehe.... As for this month April... I hope to close more cases as next month i wont in Singapore for 5 days... wow so fast leave him alone in Singapore rite? Anyway this trip is preplan long time ago... Of cos i do hope he can tagged along with me but then due to budget prob... he cant... Perhap next time ba.. maybe without my presence he will be able to work harder... this is juz my point of view ba.. and take it as a break for 2 of us lo... let him miss me more wor.. lolx...

k ba.. i think is enough for this entry le wor... will update my blog again soon.. perhap is durin the month of May le.. with photos taken...hehe...

Here I am...

Xuanny is back in bloggin finally... Curious how come i am bloggin at this moment of time? Cause i am using my company laptop to do personal stuff sia... wow sound so bad right? hehe... Is been kinda long from my last entry wor... So sorry to keep u waiting for my updates le...

Time really passses kinda fast wor.. and now is already march of 2007 le... Ermm.. my new year resolution for this year will be to balance out my social life and also my career... It might sound hard lo... And of cause i really hope my 2 best frenz.. Sze and Vien will understand that i am really not gu yi to ignore them de... I really hope to spend time with them too... who willingly to wrk day and night? but right now de me.. is really no choice as i really need to earn my 30k this year before i can relax dwn... All i really wanted to say here to Sze is that i am really sorry that i caused our friendship to have a breakage... And i really very sorry that i caused her to have the feelin that i treat my work more important than her... In fact, maybe is true.. but i really dun mean it...

Sometime i really feel so P**** off as i really very sick and tired of the hide and seek games that Lester and Shawn is playing with me... Cant they simply be frenz with me even though we are impossible to be an item... Haix... And i didnt even blame anyone of them to lie and betray my trust... I really dunno who is really true to me and is it true that i need to get hurts before i can see thru someone? Although i may not be very experience in relationship but somehow or rather most of the guys is the same... they only treat the one they love good as for those fling is only just fling... Hard to believe right? The thing i learn during this period of time is that... dun ever say out anything so soon For Eg: Wont fall in love with ***** or Wont like this or Wont like that... Cause this really happen to me... Haix... I do mention that i wont like anyone in office as i wont want any Gong Shi Lian Qing... Lolx... Cause i have like someone in Prudential... But i didnt expect to have any Jie Gou between us... Cant really afford to be hurt or hurt someone again... OMG who can really advise me what to do?

Life Really Sucks!!!!

Back In Bloggin again le.. Recently kinda busy sia... Rushing for my year end quota.. Still short of about 30k Production... Life in this line isnt easy as what i think...Is kinda lonely as most of ur frenz kwn that u r in this line they will siam u... even though ur colleague might nt be ur truthful frenz.. Luckily, Sze and Vien all along the way give me morale support la.. Feel kinda bad as i really got no time to spend with them.. Especially Sze... Luckily rite nw she gt her close frenz to Pei her le.. so Nid or dun Nid me also nt a matter to her le.. lolx... How i wish to find a Bf ASAP wor.. Sound Kinda Despo sia.. lolx...

Recently out alot of Goodies Movie... but i just got no time to watch.. furthermore.. there isnt anyone available to watch movie with me... Haiz.. So lonely sia... How i hope i can back to the past whereby can watch movie with Sze.. Er and Vien they all.. After so many things had happen... realised that all of us had change frm a Young Girl to a kinda mature Lady... lolx... So BHB hor!!! Each of us have individual things to work for and individual person to spend time with... As for me i only got time to spend in library to write this blog while waiting for my client to reach.. Sad Sia...

Dec to most of the ppl out there is a month whereby white season coming... As Christmas and after this Brand New Year of 2007 will arrive... however, Dec to me is a rather stressful and unlucky month... Kanna say by ppl de Ex gf as 3rd party... asked me nt to pester her boyfrenz.. but common lah.. the guy dun wan u le still got the cheek to say me who ask u dun have the ability to make him stay by urside..and plus i kwn him only after u 2 break off le k.. and he's the one who messed up with me de... Even though i like him.. yet i also kwn that decision still lies with him.. he wanna patch or be with me or stay single is still up to him to decise nt u or me.. hope u really understand this... another unhappy events is regardin about my work stuff... gotta complain by one of my client stating that i cheated him... WTF sia.. nt happy with me why dun directly say to me instead wrote letter to company to complain? so Small Gas de.. dun even give me a chance to explain wor.. haix.. Doctor only ma.. so big deal meh... 10k can kill ppl le ar? simply dun understand why ppl behave like that...

Really hope that all this unhappy events can over faster... i wanna have a happy feelin to welcome my 2007... hehe... Dunnoe what events will happen to me during next year...Let's all work hard together to build a better 2007... Yipee...

Confusion

This Month is an interesting month for me as i have juz turned 22 this yr... haix.. getting older le wor... the celebration for this yr is kinda simple and low profile.. and i found out something as my pals are not as caring as b4 le.. perhaps i am over reacting.. is juz a feelin lo...

He juz broke up with his girl frenz le.. and i dont kwn whether to be overjoy or sad for him... Overjoy is because i might stand a chance to be wif him, sad is because pity him as he couldnt get the love he wanted... I hated him as he lied to me he's nt attached and create a false feeling that he and me can be together... I pity him as he couldnt even tell the difference between like as a frenz and lover... he told me b4 that he is kinda happy when he's with me... and he enjoy the moment he spend together... and he also did told me b4 that he wont let me be his passerby.. and he doesnt want to treat me as his past exs.. Wtf sia.. i really simply dunno wat i shld do nw... getting so confuse.. On 9th Sep, we spend half of the day together as is both of ours birthdae... So Qiao rite? that was the first time after we 1 month nv meet up le.. Sound like we r patohing rite? hehe... actualli b4 anything happen both of us can consider meet up every 2 a week... but till now everythin tend to be different le... How i hope the time can freeze and everything back to the same... That day consider kinda happy for me but only b4 i argue wif my best fren... and she said something which hurtz me alot..

Back to the happy stuff... On that day was also my audition day for the Superstar Contest... Haix.. but is a pity as i didnt manage to get to the 2nd round... haha... too bad as my singing.. they commented was too soft and my vocal was nt strong enough... maybe after i go for vocal training first then join again next yr ba.. keke.. Btw i am going to Thailand at the end of the month.. So excited wor.. Yipee... Can start a small biz le by taking stocks frm there and sold as consignment to the vendor downstair... Yea... Cool Man Rite? Aniwae i think i better stop here.. and continue to update the news regarding abt my biz.. Hope this time round wont be in the library again le.. haha!!!!

A lonely dae for me..

yo pals.. guess what? i am now in national library alone using the muti media to update my blog again? hehe.. sorry to take such a long time to update once... hope u all wont be pissed off ba... since the last entry till now is already 2 months le ba... i wonder how's u gals gettin on now?

As usual i am busily doing roadshow and making appointment... but of cos i do have time to catch up wif Vien, Sze and some of my gd pals.. hehe... recently one of my partner has left my company.. and left me alone in the company to die.. i found it abit pity as we have develop a Mo Qi to tag team... perhap is time for me to be more independent le ba... as her Manulife's manager is rite... we got to learn how to fly on our own.. we cant depend on each other too much...

These 2 months got alot of things happen in my circle of frenz.. Below are some of the messages whereby i wish to tell my frenz...

To vien: "i know that u still like Ray rite? why nt give yourself and him a chance to prove that there's true love exist.. dun give up so easily la.. unless u tell me that he dun deserve ur love then in that case i gt no comment le... of cos i still hope u to be happy la.. dun end up like me getting yourself hurtz.. no matter in relations or one sided love..."

To Shin: " Long distant relationship is always veri Ke lian... Juz treat this as a test for your relationship... Girl trust me.. if both of u survive thru this 3/4 yrs... i can bet that both of u will have a happy ending... so dun be sad la.. u still gt us ma... "

To Sze: "Dun always treat ppl for granted la... if a person treat u well.. sometime also muz treat him/her good ma... hehe... u shld kwn wat am i talking abt ba.. i dun mean anything wor...of cos all the best tio ur studies..."

To Myself: "dun be so stupid in outting all ur minds and feelin towards that idiot guy... he 's such an idiot guy... anyway he's too good for u le... dun expect to get any return from him as his surrounding muz be alot of girls de la... so wat 4 waste ur time and youth on him... Beside he's still a young chap... of cos will find someone who is more compatible wif him ma.. u le.. juz a normal girl who is fat and ugly... better wake up la.. go concentrate on ur career la.. Money wont run away if u earn them... Guys will run away and dump u like rubbish... So wat 4 keep guy? Keep $$$ better...

For your information... That idiot guy refer to Shawn Poh Ting Feng... He's the guy whom i kwn frm IMM de...the 1st impression he gave me... is tt he resemble Sky ( a guy who i like alot in the past).. of cos he's taller than him and fatter than him abit.. hehe... generally i started to msg him after my last day roadshow at IMM on the 2nd of July... (cool man... i still can rmb the date)... and we started to meet up on the 3rd of july.. he came and find me for dinner... and on the 4th of july also the same... our third outing was on the 9th of july.. we went for a movie with his frenz.. and tt was the 1st time we hold hands.. ermm dun be mistaken we are still nt a couple yet wor.. until now we are still frenz onli... even though he say he treat me as more than normal frenz..(Hao Peng You).. He say he doesn wan to treat me as a play play Gf... if he wanna start a relationship in the future he wans a serious one... he say he wanna kwn me more b4 we commit in a relationship...And he also say tt he nv anyhow hold other ppl's... and he also dunno why he juz feel like holding my hand and dun wish to let go... (I realli dunno whether to believe nt le!!!)

Haix.. But com on la.. where gt every couple kwn each other veri well already then start a relation de? every one start off wif good feelin then throughout the days then can kwn each other de true face ma... Perhap this is an excuse for him to reject me.. and i kwn recently his exam is comin and i can understand the kind of stress he's facing with nw... tt's why i decided to give him up and leave him alone.. plan to throw the feelin away and let us remain as frenz forever ba... mayb this is a better way out for me...