here i am back...

another tired week have gone... he he.. todae having MC again... lolx... anyway i every month sure gt a few days mc de... feelin kinda bored in the occupation i am in now...plan to quit real soon.. perhap after i get my half month bonus then i leave le.. ha ha... anyway this company really not good to stay in lo... no pay increasment and also no special allowance...

ha ha getting on pretty well with the students i taking now... find that two of them are very good in their maths.. tend to have alot of careless mistake... ermm.. really nid to brush up their maths sia... i will try my best to push their grade to better one... hope that my effort wont go down the drain... lolx..

feelin very happy cos i found out recently that he's back to work le... ermmm good for him that he can really think thru le... i know that he's not happy cos last sunday during his work his face really very black le... dunnoe whether he really trying to act cool not... ha ha...perhap he really not happy cos of his bgr life is still empty... ermm to me i really very contented with wat i have now and $$$ is a important issue to me... lolx... so BGR now have or not to me is nthing le... so hope that he can really think thru tt.. if he really think clearly that tt one is his true love... he really have to scarfice for her le lo... all the best to him.. and hope that he dun say say only la.. muz make sure that he can do it... dun let the girl down again... cos he might not be able to find another girl who like him as much as she do... cos love cant be replaced de..

busy week for me ya...

a brand new week have just started and yet todae me experiencing a MONDAY BLUE... lolx.. hw cum why monday must be blue le? ermmm this one is still an unkwn to me... whu cares anyway... monday is going to end soon le... wow tuesday going to arrive soon le... ha ha.. what does it gotta to do with me ya? cos tuesday i will be taking leave or perhap call MC ba... and now i'm still wondering whether to take part in the Jue Dui SUPERSTAR anot le... anyway just go for register tml ba and i might not be call for the audition mah... not everyone will be called ba... but which two photos shld i bring along wit me tml? ermm later think got to select it carefully ba... lolx...

now better dun talk about the singing competition stuff... ermmm let's talk about the tuition i conducted for the primary three student last thurs... basically is quite a nice experience for me ya... anyway so long nv conduct tuition to strangers le... but this is a good start for me yea... lolx.. tml still gotta a new task le.... a primary five student... three subjects English, Maths and Science... i doubting myself in teaching English le... wat to do... tml cuming le.. i'm feelin kinda scare of HiS father... later not Happy wif my way how? kinda worried sia... i believe i will do my very best to teach the student the best ba...

haix... this whole month nv get to shop alot le.. todae only buy one top for myself.. ha ha... cos now then i found out tat i do not have sufficient T shirt to wear... and basically now my wardrode is all skirts and sleeveless tops which is not suitable for wearing to the JURONG Island as not to show off my Fei Rou to the ppl over there... i feeling very tired in working le how ar... still got so long to suffer le.. maybe till the day i died ba... lolx.. unless i married a Millionaire then i no nid to work le... everyday go SHopping can le.. ha ha... han bing lo me... anyway is getting rather late le... me really nid to log off le... todae just blog till here ba... Sweet dreamz... and good nitez... to myself... ha ha....

power me... month of april...

wow this is the second week of april le... time really flies sia... lolx... getting older each day le... this whole month i'm kinda busy and tired as i have been working and workin continously 7 days...lolx... currently me taking up 3 jobs, one full time and two part time... as usual as corochan counter crew and also part time tuition teachers... feelin very excited as this coming thursday i will be teaching a primary three student on maths... and plus next tues i will be teachin a primary five student on maths, english and science... lolx... kinda worried cos me scare will be able to help them much... the reason of workin so many jobs and so many days per week cos i am in need of money... wanted to go study ma in private school and nt because i am in debt... lolx...anyway next week gettin my pay le... yipee so happy.. but then anyway i cant go shoppin anymore le... must really control le... and also me maybe changin my job le... no longer wrk at corochan but maybe join RAE in bubble tea... cos the treatment there not bad sia... kinda worried cos ANN, RAE's frenz is there and she already not happy as i'm quite close with RAE.... JEalousy lo... lolx... is nt funny anyway....

haix... this whole week so buys till never really on my msn everyday... and i dunnoe hw many days nv chat with him on msn le.. dunno hw he have been le... and also dunno his exam how le... neither do he update his blog ever since 7th of april... just hopin he's fine... anyway all the best to him and his dream gal or shld say his former exs ba... just hopin that the girl will give him a chance again and be with him again.... but frankly i found myself stupid le... why on earth so many times let him cheat le and yet i still like him so much? i also dun even knw the answer myself... but i do believe there's sure an reason behind it... wonder how many ups and downs do i have to go thru before i really met the right one... or maybe throughout this whole life i wont met the right one le... cos i already lost him...

better blog till here as tml still gotta go JI to wrk... haix... POWER SERAYA... my third home le.. lolx...plus tml going for movie le... ha ha.. so must slp early or else i doze off during the show... ke ke...

Voices Of My Heart

haix... i just wake up not long ago.. wow is was kinda a nice sleep for me last nite... wow so long nv really sleep well le... been currently busy working this whole week... lolxxxx... next week will also be the same for me ya... i have another blog beside here...

yesterdae i knock off kinda early and wanted to blog dwn but then my post was not published as there are errors appearing.... yipee.. so early and me only wrk for 4 hrs ba... lolx... not tt bad la cos i was paid thousand plus per month yet i everyday knock off early... ha ha... am i abit weird cos i have two blogs le... so sometimes dunno where to write sia... perhap i shld only update one of them only everytime.. whereas the other one just kept for fun de... ha ha#### you know what on wed i have taken my first time in ever ride on a bike... when i am on the way back home from JURONG ISLAND... a guy offer me this ride.. wow the ride was so scary but kinda exciting le... cos can let the nature wind blow across your face... that feeling was dam cool and siok... ermm but then i still prefer cars la... at least have the convertable one lo... he he.... han bing rite me... still dreaming sia...

ermm kinda sad cos now no mood to do anything.. all my minds is filled with him... ermm but i know that life still gotta go on and we two are just impossible to be back again... and even though there's just another chance for me... i will definately be the one get hurt again... kinda happy for him as he now finally get the chance to build back the relation back with his ex... i really envy the girl whu can really catchen his heart..and no matter hw much pain i suffer .. he wont understand and he wont get a chance to knw de.. perhap i shld really let go ba.. at least this might make me feel better... whereby i know no matter how i kept myself busy i just cant forget him... and i cant bring myself to hate him... sometime i asked myself am i willingly to forksake everything for him? or is just because i cant own him.. tts why i cant let him go.... but in the end my answer is i really love him... just hoping he can be HAPPY even though i knw his happiness was not me... cos in the end i knw me and him wont end up together... i never regret knowing him and falling in love with him... Perhap this is life destine ba....

i do realise that sometime things once u let go before.. is hard to catch it back again... perhap there's life ba... person undergo ups and downs... sadness and happiness just to gain experiences... just like everyday got new born babies.. and everyday there's ppl died... this is called life cycle ba... sometimes really find it meaningless to be a living things..living beings are just so ke pei lo... dunnoe what on earth are we still living here...

I MISS HIM SO....

todae knock off early so take this time to blog it down... i was consider wrking only for 3 hrs todae cos i reach JURong Island ay 11 plus... then i knock off at 2 pm without taking my lunch la.. of cos... todae was a cooling day as it rained since morning till now then stopped... and need to walk 1 km into the office as there's any transport... but luckily thru and fro ... cars have stopped to bring me in.... maybe consider my lucky day ba... haix.. i still haven finish the report which was given to me for 2 months plus le... but lucky i now left abit more to accomplish...


dunnoe what happen to me after 31st of march... i started to miss him even more... and i really very sad as in his blog it written that he want his ex back... and she's the greatest regret of his lifetime... anyway i cant do anything to help him.. but just pray for him that he will be with that girl in the future... perhap tt's the only thing i could do for him ba... dunnoe whether he did read my blog not... but just hope that all the posting i wrote in the past was not read by him... cos to him now.. i am only his frenz or perhap frenz also not just a normal ppl chatting in msn ba... even though i cant chat with him face to face but thru msn i also very happy le... at least this is the only passage to let me knw about his well- being ba...



a few days ago.. i dreamt of my aunt... it wasnt a pleasant dream as i dream of something creepy running after my aunt... i felt so hopeless as i cant do anything to help her.. and can only stand aside to watch... i wonder what's tt creepy thing about... but what i guess is something not very nice or friendly ba.... perhap i am thinking too much le ba.. or shld say i watch too much horror movie le... just hope that my aunt is living well in the neither world... and hope that everything goes well for my mum and my families...