yesterday was my Best Pal's birthdae... and it was the 1st time i watched an R21 movie.. the tittle was Cold Shower.. this movie was a french movie but actualli i simply dun understand wat the story line was.. maybe it was a wen yi movie so i cant catch the story line... Frankly speakin i nearly doze off during the show.. all i understand tt the main character and his girl frenz plus another frenz of his was having three person sexual style... wow man i really cant believe that ppl can actually share their girl frenz wif his frenz in this kinda of 'action'? but anyway i hope that the next R21 show will be better than this... haha... kinda disappointed in this movie even though the tittle sound nice la...

Now said abt Sze's birthdae party yesterdae... it was kinda crowded as alot of ppl, especailly her relatives almost covered half of the place.. the party was considered a success even though alot of ppl last min throw aeroplane and nv even tell us... haix... again i'm disappointed in Yw... as he disappoint me again.. haix... he lied to me again saying he will come and waited for him till 9 plus le... still cant c any sign of his presence.. i'm kinda angry wif him as he nv even bother to tell me tt he's nt cumin... wat so called urgent stuff happen... hw cum he gt so mani urgent stuff happen de? and till nw he dun even bother to msg me or call me to say sorry... but come on la, px.. who on earth u r... nt his gf why muz he say sorri to u? anyway yesterdae is nt mine birthdae why muz i be so pissed off wif him? i juz simply dun understand myself.. maybe i really fallen deep for him? which i supposed nt to as he's my kor.. always will be my kor...

wow read thru all my posts i discover my posts mostly are on relationship... perhap i shldnt write so much on that le.. but then i really have to say sorry cos i think i'm destine to suffer in relation and $$$$... anyway i better write till here.. c ya all again...

Hey i'm back in bloggin agai.. wow recently very busy doing my overtime.. life still the same as for me recently.. nthing special had happen ard me!!! sometime feel if life could be more fun and entertaining, will be better... maybe i shld change my way of lifestyle ba.

my ex Colleague just back to singapore for her 1 month holidae before reeturnin to Aust on 2nd of Jan... Juz met up wif her and together we went for a steamboat dinner wif Ee Choo and Auntie Tay plus Yan Ping lo... hehe.. the Dinner was great.. After that we plan to watch movie de but in the end we went for Clubbin at Double O... Wow kinda disappointed wif the place there as it wasnt really so amazing.. perhap yesterdae i do not really have the mood to go Clubbing ba.. lols..

i nowadays very fang as i am considering whether to accept a guy as my BF nt... is nt i am raceist le.. actualli tot of trying out wif him but most of my frenz say better nt cos it might be difficult to break off wif him if he's really serious wif me... frankly i dun really believe that he will be serious wif me.. haha why do i have this mentality le? ermm dunno le.. juz feel that relationship to me cum and goes just like tt... there wont be ever lasting love happen now in this century le.. perhap ppl are becuming more and more western le ba.. so sooner or later our culture will sure be gone le.. haha.. wonder will there be a culture savour appear in the years dwn the road? another thing is that not only he's a malay... and yet his qualification is infact lower than mine... haix.. i realli in a dilemma... but perhap i dun realli like him as when u like a person u wont nid to think and of cos sure u will be wif him when he express his love to u... this is a story adapted frm a priest's say...

now i'm in the office doing nthing..haha... next month shall be my last month in this Company le.. kinda happy and kinda a bit bu she as i have feelin for those ppl wrkin here... happi in the sense i can try a brand new field regardless Insurance Line or as a teacher in International Sch... These two fields will be definately a challenging one for me.. especially the Insurance line cause have more chances to meet more people.. more exposure..

haix.. i think better stop bloggin here otherwise i will go on and on without stoppin.. lolxx...

todae is my happy day... i finally free from my m5 le... i finally manage to pass it le.. the wish really cum true men... i realli nid to go bencoolen to repay le.. the god have really grant my wish to let me pass... at least my effort of studyin nv go dwn the drain... hehe...

life as usual goes on for the same to me.. but recently get to buaya wif one MALAY guy.. lolx.. he's a security guard frm Cisco wrkin at POwer SeraYa..he's one yr older than me.. which is 22 this yr... his name is Faizal... haha.. dunno hw to pronounce sia.. so chim de.. aniwae he's kinda a cute guy but then always bully me de.. saddish... todae he told me that he like me... but cum to think if i really believe i really veri Kiddy le.. cos i'm nt 3 yr old kid anymore le.. we kwn each other for nearly few months cum to actual... only recently we exchange number for contact as i'm leavin there soon le.. as usual i told him that we nid time to kwn each other better as frenz first... rite guys?

haix.. my relation wif yw still goes on the same as usual.. nthin special happen between us.. still kor and mei for us.. but the bondin between us is tend to gets stronger at least i kwn hw much i meant in his heart... lolx.. so bhb hor me.. but frankly at least i kwn he still care for me.. no matter as Mei or frenz or even gf.. care is veri impt.. this show i still stand a certain value in his life... perhap life wont be the same without me le.. or maybe will be better off wo me in his life.. shldnt be?

hey... come on Px.. wat have u promise urself? in this few yrs maybe 5 yrs dwn the road... shldnt care for love but only for $$$ and family plus frenz... perhap cum to xin guang alone de lifestyle le.. even though sometime i do feel lonely but at least i kwn i wont be alone forever... this loniness is only for the moment...

recently there's alot of issue on pre marriage sex... there's diff ways of saying... frankly to me there isnt any right or wrong i this behaviour... but most impt thing is u must be responsible in ur way of action.. nt because u cant bear the responsibility then u got to sacrifise a new born life... in this case this way of doing is definately nt correct le.. to me i nv really disagree or agree to this issue la.. but to me is that recently Virgin are hard to find le.. isnt it? so for me i will still preserve this to my loves one... perhap might nt be my husband but he must be my most beloved man... lolx.. so mushy men.. so girls out there rmb to protect urself of cos i'm nt askin u nt to lost to ur bf... if u realli think is the right moment then i got nthing to say le.. haha...

k ba guys.. me got to slp le... mornin everyone... yawnz... me do my overtime till i going to koon.. plus last nite nv slp well cos my exam.. haix.. going hea wire soon le..

yo man.. i'm back in bloggin again... life couldnt get ani better for me nowadays... as usual my relationship wif him is still in the unknown suitation... OMG... who can advise me wat shld i do... i kinda enjoy this kind of relation but then i am scare that i cant control myself and let myself fall deeper for him... Haix.. why cant he simply tell me how he feel for me? and let me directly kwn which path to go...

recently i been thinkin about the issue that everyone is talkin about... Regarding about girls puttin up their naked photos in their blog to attract visitor to read their blog... but common men.. who is interested in ur stuff but onli ur pics lo.. and why shld we let them have free show? but somehow there are also some ppl who simply posts their comments and keep blog as their personal dairy.. juz like me... i simply juz wanna share my blog wif my peers and frenz about my personal views and thinkin towards certain issue or stuff... and my welldoin for those who are in oversea now...

by being a blogger can also make urself famous le.. for instance recently the Dawn Yeo.. and also Xia Xue... these two ppl have make themselves famous by being a blogger... kinda envy them but wat to do.. both of them are so pretty and got the x factor to attract ppl attention... to me writing a blog is nthing wrong but somehow is something personal which u willingly to share out wif ppl ard the world.. ritez... so common we shldnt stop bloggin... dun ever let dwn those ppl who startted this trademark.. Blogger Rocks..

today is a coolin and rainy saturday... wow after these few holidae by right yesterday i suppose to go to work but in the end cos not feelin well.. again got to apply leave again.... another unpaid leave sia... lolx... this month my pay will deduct dunno hw much le.. kinda saddish sia... later going for my colleague weddin at Marina Mandarin hotel... ermm gotta broke again as nid to give red packet ma...

u kwn two days ago... i argue wif him.. and frm this argument i gets to kwn that how sweet and hw concern he was to me... i really feel very sad in argueing with him... i dunno why i'm so jealous when he say he wanna kwn my frenz frenz after Wed clubbin at ChinaBlack... that gal is such a hot and wild babe.. perhap most gals like to kwn this kinda of gals ba... i purposely dun wanna answer his call nor reply his sms... juz dun wanna heard frm him at that very moment... and he keep on callin and smsing me... saying that he was worried abt me doing anythin silly... but frankly i'm nt to that extend doing any thing stupid la.. is juz dun wanna contact or talk to anyone.. i really suspectin myself gettin depression le... hw? whu out there can help me? but till now me and him better le...i am tryin to cut dwn my contact wif him... perhap Sze is rite lo... dun care abt whether he gt contact wif tt gal nt juz care abt myself and him can le.. wat for make my life so miserable?? juz relax and dun care what ever he told me gt tell others nt... i really Hao xiang Zhi Dao ta de Li xiang Qing Ren dao Di is zeng yang de ren, dao di you mei you wo de feng..

Just waNNa Kwn that how he feel for me... everytime i asked him abt this kinda of question.. he always try to avoid it.. he nv reject or accept me... he himself also dunno hw he feel for me? even though he have feelin for me but he juz dun wanna anyhow think... perhap he really wanna avoid ba... but to me if he doesnt like me, can he reject me directly instead of treatin me so gd.. i scare i cant control myself in fallin deeper for him..

Perhap i shldnt think so much le ba.. i juz cant help myself to think le.. and concentrate on my insurance test next next week... juz wanna pass so i can fulfill my ambitious to be an agent... i am really lookin forward in this line.. juz as i am lookin forward to be an child care teacher.. hehe... btw forget to inform u tt next week onward till dec.. i'm wrkin as a part time cashier at my hse here de ntuc... ermm hope i can make use of my free time to earn money... meanwhile he also going to wrk in starhub company le.. his trainin starts todae.. hope he can really stick to his job till dec... cos he nid money now.. so i hope he can depend on himself to obtain wat he wan... instead to borrow frm frenz.. rite? and i believe he can do it de... cos i believe he do have ability to obtain wat he wans...maybe i really too naggy sometime ba... dan yuan he wont be irritated by me...

Dear Blog.. i am back in updating my dairy le.. this week realli rocks men.. cos is kinda a long holidae for me le.. cos Monday half day... tues, wed and thurs is a holidae for me.. lolx.. hard to find le.. cos most of my frenz still nid to wrk le.. so consider myself luckily men..

haix.. feelin kinda sad as i flung my 2nd insurance test paper le on the 27th of October... OMG wat shld i do? i really hope to get into this line le.. hope i can really make my mark in this line... God can u please help me.. or anyway out there can help me? perhap shld i depend on myself to obtain this line... lolx...

sometime i feel really empty le.. wat shld i do? wanna go look for a bf but where on earth i shld i go and find one? maybe i shld wait nature take its course ba... or shld i wait for my kor? i dunno hw he feel for me cos my relation with him is really complicated... haix.. somehow so near somehow so far... is lovin someone so difficult to tell? or is it sometime when u have feel for someone doesnt mean that u like or love him? what does love means sometime? i also dun really understand.. haix... does all guys really go sex instead of love? or shld i say they wont care whether they gt feelin for tt girl they will still have sex with them? this is wat i heard from all my colleagues... even though they are married but then they still go hunt for prey.. perhap there are some gd guys out there who really have sex with only to those they have feelin and not becuase of their needs...

life kinda gets boring nowadays cos i wanna earn more money to fulfill my ambition to be a businesswomen.. lolx.. somehow like the hyflux CEO... how i envy those ppl who are so rich that they do not have to think on how they spend their money... i think i better stop bloggin here.. cos time is gettin late le..