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June 01, 2007

So Sad!!!!

Recently i think i am really dwn to luck wor... watever appointments that i went didnt really turn to be a gd result wor... haix.. sad sad.. dunno whether is it really matter that when ur love luck is gd, ur career luck went dwn... Perhap it doesnt really go in that way that the amount of hard wrk u put in, u will get to c wat kind of result... Luck also matter anyway...

I really wanted to have a balance out lifestyle... But i think there isnt two side of best world ba...normally when u have one thin.. u will indirectly lost another thing... Time really passes very fast wor... Sweetheart and me have been together for 2 months plus le... but it seems like we been together for very long... haha... isit my illusion??? or mayb both of us are to naive le.. SweetHeart keep on askin me when we gettin married...he wanted to get married at 26 yrs old... i am Happy although but it indirectly placin stress on me too... so far i haven really think so far yet... is not that he isnt good enough is juz tt i dun like empty promises... wat for think till so far when ur present is still uncertain?? i am those kind of person who Happy Go Lucky de... dun really wish to think so much.. will only add misery to urself...

Although Sweetheart is nt a romantic person but last Sunday he promise to go with me to the fun fair at Woodsland there... but in the end because of an appointment, he decided to let me dwn... treat wrk more impt than me... and indeed he did do sumthin to pu chang me.... hehe... and it is his 1st time to buy flowers for me... My Fav WHITE LILIES... hehe... i feel kinda touched especially when he say sorry, his eyes is watery de... as if wanna burst to tears le.. after SundAE, we argue again on tues.. He told me that he will went back late as his frenz birthdae... but in the end he didnt even go hm wor.. he told me his hp low batt sia... but he didnt even bother to use his frenz phone msg me or frenz phone to call me... this made me really doubting whether am i really impt to him... I nearly wanted t break up with him as i feel tired after subsequence de arguement... Both of us are stubborn ppl... tt's why we always have disagreement over certain issue... and furthermore he is a male charvenist lo... who want a xiao niu ren...but in fact, i cant be one as career is equal impt to me too.. hehe...

SweetHeart... I hope that we can wrk hard together to build a better future for both of us... and i will try to becum a better me.. and i hope u will too...