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July 13, 2007

Unpredictable !!!!

Hi Pals, is another sick day for me... been rotting at home still waiting for the time to arrive for me to start working... Haix... Recently been very down to luck.. whatever i do doesnt seems to be right le... Frenz start to be unhappy with me and even my 2 best frenz also now dont really wanna talk to me le... So sad sia... one of them angry of me cos of the copycat issue again... another one unhappy with me due to some unkown reasons... is it true that once u have one precious thing, u will tend to lost another precious thing? why cant people have best of 2 worlds???

Sales recently been very down also... no matter how much effort i put in... the result still doesnt seem to come in... was it because of my luck problem??? rite now even frenz also dun even wanna support me... haix... is it because i not trustworthy enough??? or is it because what i kwn as frenz is not really my frenz??? they rather support others than me??? haix... maybe what they think is that they dun wanna me earn money out of their case.... but which in fact i dun really earn much... sometime i think if i still continue workin in my related line... my story wont be so interesting le... and mayb my frenzship wont turn out to be like this sucking situation...

Relationship rite now doesnt really give me any problem... but is still the same old issue lo... he treat career more importantly... but sometime i find out very contridicting... as in i wished my loved one to be an ambitious person... but yet rite now i am conplainin that he doesnt have time to spend with me... ermm... perhap i am demanding too much le... i know that he been trying hard to establish his career and yet due to my health condition sometime he need to delay his appointment to take care of me... in fact i am really very lucky to find him lo... as he will be there to Pei me when i am down...

Ermm... i really very worried that my fever have been persistent for so many days le.. On and Off de... haix... i scare that i will kenna dengue fever or even worst leukemia... hope is that i think too much le ba... But is true that life is very unpredictable... when you are contented with what u have that very moment... the Death God will just take your life away... Haix...

Hope everything will turn out to be good lo.. and my sales will generally come in eventually... if by this year i never hit my goal.. i might leave this industry le.. take care my pals... is the end of my entry le...