recently feelin very upset and confuse... yesterdae juz fail my M9 again.. wow feelin so depress le.. this is my 2nd test le... the aggregate seem so near but yet so far... haix.. nearly pass the test but simply no luck lo... or perhap i am fated to take it for 3 times then can pass... haix..
i felt so useless as i always got tired easily and these few weeks onli wrk a 2 or 3 days per week... wow OMG i am really going broke le... dunno whether to claim the leave or leave it unclaim... if i really claim those leave then i will be left nthing le... so dilemma sia... if dun claim like no veri gd le... haha maybe only claim a few off days ba... tml nid to go back wrk le... and next whole week muz go for wrk unless i gt retest... hehe.... this is a promise made to myself le... aniwae me going to extend my wrkin day... cos tot of using these few days to earn more... beside the wrkin time is so easy so no harm wrkin few more days... before i start my new job as a part time language teacher and insurance agent... still considerin i can manage to juggle wif 3 job at a time or maybe i shld give up my tuition job?
haha.. maybe in this case will be better for me as i have no time to involve in a relationship and no nid to get myself hurt again... recently my relationship wif yuwei gets sour... simply dun understand why or maybe i juz think too much le... to me i juz hope to be part of his life as years go dwn the road... even though i kwn he wont accept me but juz hope that he will still think of my existence when he's dwn... i dun mind to give a helpin hand for him and of cos i dun expect any return frm him... is juz my yi xiang qing yuan ba... Recently confusing as i dunno who to accept now... shld i choose someone whu love me or shld i choose the one i love... maybe i shld give myself a chance to start a relationship ba... among the 4 guys .. each have their gd points and ba points... but cum to think dunno whu can take it when their gf's heart dun realli belong to them 100 %.. common whu will 100% love someone at 1 time? i shld realli stop here and continue next time... c ya... and hope u enjoy readin my blog entry...
